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Playin a little ping-pong |
These past few days with Sophia have been like a boot camp for the heart. Friday was our second full day together and as our host family had more adoption paperwork to gather, we were on our own. It forces us to try and bond. We started off trying to go for a bike ride, but the bike for her was too big, so we went for a walk instead. We got back and I fixed Sophia something to eat for lunch. After lunch she went upstairs and I stayed downstairs to play a little ping pong with one side turned up. 30 minutes later she came downstairs and started pulling out some of the games off the book shelf. So for the next half hour we played Connect 4. Friday's special adventure was Skype. Around mid afternoon we called Anya, who had just woken up and had a fresh bed head action...it was 8am on the east coast. It's nice to see her smile...even if all I can do is create the moment that makes it happen. Well, as it turns out we had to cut the call short as I got a call from our facilitator saying that her passport was ready and we need to be outside in 10 minutes. SERIOUSLY, 10 minutes! It's gonna take me 9 to translate this change of events! Somehow, I managed, we jumped into the car and off to pick up the passport we went. I half expected to be meeting someone in a back parking lot as the passport was not due to be ready until Tuesday. No parking lots, we used the front door. While we waited, Sophia played Angry Birds on my phone. She doesn't have to play any games, it was more a gesture on my part.
Side note, she has lived in the orphanage for quite some time. All they do is wait. I am going to need patience from God to out wait my daughter. Perfect as we head into her teenage years. With passport in hand we headed back to the house.
Our hosts came home with the older brother of one of the boys they are looking to adopt. He is staying with us through the weekend. They need to get his permission to adopt due to separation of siblings. Mind you, this boy has been out of the orphanage for about 2 years and has not seen his younger brother since. Cool kid, he can really play some ping pong. We all jumped in the car and headed to Pesto's pizza joint. They have really good pizza, great service (a rarity), and they have American 80's music playing...what's not to like!? After dinner we took a stroll through the park and winded our way around the blocks.
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Sophia helping in the kitchen |
Saturday brought with it another orphan birthday celebration (also a rarity). So we headed out to visit with their two soon-to-be-adopted sons and celebrate a birthday. We stopped by the store and picked up cake, cookies, candies and drinks. The orphanage where they live is just outside Simferopol. We played with the soccer ball and tossed the frisbee around. This particular orphanage, while slightly different in the layout, has the same "feel" as the one Sophia came from. From there we stopped by another grocery store to pick up some items for dinner. Sophia wanted spaghetti. So we got everything we needed to make spaghetti and she picked out a pineapple flavored sorbet for dessert.
Dinner was awesome...and very filling. The main event for the evening was a walk to Sophia's father's place. That's right, I said walk. Her childhood home is within a 15 minute walk from where we are right now. Her Aunt's place is only another 5 minutes past that. Man, tell me God didn't have something to do with this. You couldn't orchestrate this. Anyway, on the walk over, you could tell Sophia was excited, almost giddy. Though I must say Ukrainians are not giddy in public, maybe at a soccer game, but certainly not on the street. She was pointing out houses that were new in the neighborhood, which street she used to ride her bike down. Same thing happened here as at the apartment, she walks down the street and people are saying her name and hello. The whole time she is smiling. Again, I only helped facilitate this event. I need to say a special thank you to Tammy as without her, I would not have done this alone. For one, my Russian is not strong enough, two, I needed the spiritual support.
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Neighborhood street |
Sophia is beaming from ear to ear as she sees her dog and calls to her. I'm guessing the dog recognized the voice and came, but she didn't get excited until she smelled Sophia. We arrive at the gate and Sophia calls out to her papa. He opens it and lets us in to his domain. He showed us around and offered us sunflower seeds and grapes. We looked at old pictures of him in his youth. We talked about the family history. How he taught Sophia to ride a bike. How she caught a snake with her bare hands...btw, this happened only about a year or two ago. He showed us pictures of Sophia growing up. Every picture, and I mean every single one, she is smiling. For anyone that has been here, you know people don't smile to each other on the street, the hallways, heck, even sharing a park bench. Even in most pictures, they don't smile. It is almost always a straight face, like an old black and white from the 1800's. Sophia loves her papa very much. Her father reiterated that she needs to get out of Ukraine and find a better life. There is no doubt this man loves his daughter, but he cannot take care of her. He doesn't have a physical ailment, he just does not have the means to support her. He walked us all the way back to our house, as did a friend of his and Sophia's dog. We thanked him for the visit and for walking us back. He said goodbye and turned to walk back home. There were no hugs upon seeing Sophia, there were no hugs upon leaving Sophia. Another piece of the puzzle.
I am following the advice of a friend right now. I am just breathing. Even though she is not here with me to experience this, Lisa has been a great wife and virtual shoulder from so far away. I will leave this blog with some her thoughts. I love you babe.
Thank you for sharing the tough night that you had. I wish I was there with you and Sophia to help ease your pain. These last few days have been extremely heavy for both of you and I'm glad that they are over. As necessary as they were for all of us, her seperation anxiety will never get better until she can move forward. I hope tomorrows activities are fun filled and can take your mind off of everything. I remember a friend saying that even a year later that things were still very raw for her kids. I think the same is true for you guys. We've peeled away a lot and now we need to build.
The boys and I started today at DD....after a 30 min exercise of getting dressed. I again told Adam that he has to know how to get dressed by himself in Kindergarten. His response, "I'm not even in school yet". He proceeded to tell me that after his first day that he'd get himself dressed on his own. Although not nearly as dramatic, he too has lots to overcome this next year. Never mind Mr Casanova (of the 7 year olds) and Mr. Casanova (of the teenage kind). We just need to step back, observe, listen and engage on their cues. We need to interact more with the kids (making dinner, crafts at the table, conversations in the car, more family nights, etc). Things are going to be tricky for a while, but we'll figure it out. You and I are an amazing team. We have an increadible partnership in which we know when to give and when to take. That is something I admire and cherish about us. Our decision to cut out daycare was a fantastic one. It shows that our priority is our family and we're willing to do whatever we need to make it happen. Every now and then God sets off a firework to make us do things that are outside our comfort level. I have to say that this firework was not the store bought kind. It's more like the 75th anniversary of Disney World kind, but those are the ones that light up the sky and are always remembered forever.
So...I love you plain and simply. I can't wait for you and Sophia to walk down that hallway at the airport. The boys miss you very much. I still think it was the right choice to stay home with them instead of heading back with you. God introduced us to Matt and Tammy to help fill the gap during these two weeks. I don't think that another 3 weeks without one of us would have been good for any of them. I'm happy to say that Adam hasn't wet the bed in 2 days! We put up a world map and US map at the house and the boys have helped me put stickers in important places. God has blessed us with some amazing boys.